Vat jou goed en trek ... Lotto ... dreams

Today (Friday) should be a happy day, we lodged our PR papers, now for the big wait our own case officer may he or she look favourably at our file. It's our future or what's left of it. The first day to the rest of our lives here in OZ ... Scared?! What does it have instore for us? How long will this nail biting wait take ... who knows. Anger?! Yes cause finally after 19 years he found the time to lodge the papers, now that our chances are at their worst ... say no more. Maybe they just boot us out ... pack your bags, you got 28 days to uproot your life again.

Why so negative?
Life is making me that way, it's just getting to hard. I am not in a good place right now, so just go ahead and shoot me and get it over with. But I am still writing that book, even if my mother thinks I am wasting my time, cause "Your not getting paid so why bother" It's all about money it's always been about the money. Not because you want to do something cause you enjoy it or it's a challenge. So why do you let it worry you? I should just brush it aside,like water off a ducks back. Can Mother and daughter be so different in their ways and thoughts. Nothing has ever been good enough for her. Atleast she has something in common with dear George, who has become the man in her eye's after 32 years of disliking him, cause he just woun't quit working, making a Dollar ... and killing himself cause he's chasing money too. I get it that he is doing what he thinks is right, before he loses his health and sight. But put it all on a scale, and see what weighs the heaviest, the stress of living in the city, rents, bills, lights that keep going up, hours of travel. And on the otherside a simplier lifestyle.

What would you do if you won the Lotto? Got to play it first to win they say, so maybe I should start buying a few tickets for the just in case you know. Would it mean We could stay in Australia, sure they would hate to see so much money leave the country right? Then I could build a small stone house in the bush, add a few solar panels to the roof, collect a little wood for the fireplace, talk to the animals. That's how simple life should be, but I can do that without winning the Lotto, maybe a little money would help.

Now the good news, if we manage to stay here which really I should be more positive about cause there really should not be any major problems. You will just have to give up on your dreams of living on the farm for the next 4 years, while I make more money and end up making the Boss rich, so just maybe there is a bonus at the end of the year. That would be wonderful!!! Not holding my breath ... Ja ek is vrek ondankbaar